Heart overload

25 March 2013






Yesterday was my birthday and this is what I wore. The weekend came and I went for my normal up beat self to the saddest person ever. Why? I use to be all about my birthday's I would even go as far as having a birthday week and this year was a different story. Let me be honest for a sec ... I loved entering my 30's it gave me a huge boost of encouragement and motivation that I didn't have in my 20's. I don't know what happen from 30-35 it's all a huge blur for me, I don't know what I've accomplished? To sum it all up Saturday all these feelings, emotions came crashing down on me. All I kept thinking was "what have I done in 35 years? " Yeah I've lived in different places, have been blessed with good health, my family is healthy and happy however none of these things seemed to matter to me. So , Saturday (day before my birthday) was pretty much spent in my bed under the covers, in tears. Then come midnight and my husband says " your Mom is on Facebook posting pictures of you. " Embarrassed by the photos being posted I called my Mom and just hearing her voice turned my frown upside down. Just hearing the excitement in her voice  that it was midnight and it was the day HER first daughter was born was so touching. I don't know what it is about Mothers but just their sound, touch or presence is so calming and comforting. Then it was Sunday morning and I was awaken by a Facetime call from my niece who was as chipper as ever singing Happy Birthday Auntie , and it was at this moment that I realized why am I so sad. Yeah I'm not where I thought I was gonna be at 35 however I have so much more than I ever imagined - LOVE. My parents love me beyond words, I have amazing brothers , sisters, my niece is healthy and awesome, I have the most loving friends and I have a wonderful husband that adores me. "Quit your whining Myrna and just be grateful" I said to myself.
After my emotional break down I finally got dressed and put on the one thing I knew that would make me feel special. J.Crew and hearts who can go wrong, right? So my day is almost over and I am bummed that it began the way it did but come next year will be a whole different story.
top/skirt/purse : J.Crew (old)
tights : Target
shoes : Ralph Lauren
glasses : Warby Parker (Huxley)
bracelet : Tiffany & Co.

5 comments:

  1. Happy belated birthday!
    I get the same way every year around my brithday. I get excited when it approaches (about a month away) then as the day nears I fret about not having enough friends to celebrate with, not being where I want to be in life, etc. Then my birthday comes and I get excited and feel loved. It happens every year. So, I feel ya!

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  2. I did the same thing last year when I turned 34. I just didn't want to do anything and nothing seemed like it was how it should've been or turned out how it should've. I ended up spending the day just doing nice things for myself and a few for other people. In the end, it was good. We'll see how my 35 goes in a few months.

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  3. Happy belated birthday, pretty girl! I'm happy you realized all the amazing things you've got going for you. Ironically, birthdays make me a little sad too, so I feel ya:) LOVE that dress on you!

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  4. happy belated birthday, myrna! i hope this year is the best one yet.

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  5. Thanks ladies I'm so glad I'm not the only one.

    XX-Myrna

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